Push

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I was recently accused of pushing whenever something acted upon me. Encounter a physical limitation? I push myself through it. I push myself hard- at the gym, in my recovery, and in general. I push against people hard. Push me? I'll push you. Get close and I'll push you arm's length away.

I'm not sure why I push.

It's like walking a dog where the dog gets hot and stops. Instead of being understanding, stopping and giving the dog some water, my inclination is to drag the dog on it's leash and finish the walk.

Related to pushing, I force things because I'm not patient. I don't let things just happen, I have to make things happen the way I want them to. And how's that working out for ya? This is where I'm learning to just shut my trap and stop forcing things to happen. Enjoy the moment, live in the present, and stop making plans.

Being in control isn't about pushing, it's about accepting.

Grace.